Sgt Tertekan

Hmphhh!!!!!!!!Argh!!!!
Sangat2 stress bile hard disk itu rosak. Content di dalamnya amat penting untuk aku.

Walaupun most of the things aku tak pedulik pn ape isi dia, tapi mmg penting bagi aku..

Sangat² sedih...kerana dia penting, hard disk itu penting...Sangat tertekan dan menekankan.... :'(

Sampai bos aku cakap, aku cam kena sabotaj je. Sbb dlu thumbdrive aku ilang, and then suddenly ade balik. Pastu surat dari jabatan lain ilang, sampai skang ni tgh risau cari. Tak habis ngan tu, hard disk aku rosak. Ade gak barang lain yang ilang..

Dahla skang banyak gile masalah...yang aku tak masuk campur pn orang sengaja libatkan aku. Yang aku tak bersalah pn orang salahkan aku...Masalah dengan diri sendiri lagi, melawan perasaan, melawan otak...Ape nak jadi ngan aku ni?

Takpela Huda, mungkin masanya membuang memori even though u cherish it so much...Redha Huda, redha...percaya dengan ketentuanNya. percaya semua yang jadi dengan izinNya...Bergembiralah! Percayalah kebahagiaan sebenar akan datang dariNya... :')

p/s : dear orang jahat, if u read this, u know who u are. I am stronger than u. There's nothing u can do to tear me down. U cannot hurt me physically or mentally. antalah bape banyak antu pn, Dia lebih berkuasa. ok!!! :)

Labuan Matriculation College(KML) 2002/03 (part 1, maybe)

Title tu macam nostalgic je bunyi nye kan...memories for friends kat KML..

Anyway, masa ke Labuan dlu, my batch was the fifth batch in KML, but the first to stay in the newly ready college. B4 tu klej tak siap lagi, n dgrnye seniors stay kat UMS kampus Labuan. Kampus UMS dengarnya mmg lawa, kat tepi pantai, tapi I’ve never been there. Sbg budak baik, yang aku tau pegi outing kat UK, Labuan Supermarket, etc pastu balik...itu je la life aku, takde nye nak explore2.. Kecuali the time aku ke Dataran Labuan ikut Kak Olianah n family tgk Hari Wilayah, and time jalan2 ngan dia n anak n adik dia.

Dulu, klas2 di KML mula jam 7 pagi n ends at 4/5pm. However, klas2 petang kadang²abis awal. Bile abis awal mulela melepak kat kafe B dgn kawan². Rehat slalunye pkl 8/9/10am n 12/1pm. Kalo tak silap la...correct me if I’m wrong... ;p

As I mentioned earlier, life aku kat matrik dlu sgt ordinary n bosan. Macam buku cite Shin chan ‘Kisah Si Biasa dalam Pengembaraan yang Biasa’. Hahaha.. Ade la a few occassions yang memberi warna pada life aku masa tu.

We were divided into 2 streams, the life science and the physical stream. Dalam hayat n fizikal dibahagi kepada few classes yang besar, kuliah. Dan dalam kuliah lak ada kumpulan2 kecil, tutorial. As for my class, aku budak Hayat 2 Tutorial 14 (H2T14). And every tutorial ni guided by mentors.

Masa tu rapat dengan Suri, Azizi, Dayang, krol, Raop, Nana, Intan, Awie, n the rest of the class la...eheheh... Sinah lak aku tak rapat sgt masa tu, dia ni asal kuliah lain, n masuk klas kitorg pn tak lama...Mentor masa tu Ms Halina, rasanya, pas dia ikut hubby dia ke Catagena, Spain kitorg takde mentor lg kot... everyone loves her..and still do. J

Most of the days after klas Krol temankan aku makan. Kesian member, dah kenyang pn terpaksa temankan aku makan. Thanks K, sbb rajin melayan kerenah kamek yang tahpapa...ahahah...he’s a very good friend. Seronok berkawan dgn dia.

Selalunya, kuliah n tutorial pagi, petang lak utk lab n tutorials. Kesian lecturers aku, sbb aku ni agak lembab..uhuhuhu...Tapi syukurlah, aku lulus kan...Sbnrnye, bukan lembab, bitamin M terlebih...

Yang seronoknya bila buat experiment Kimia n Biologi. Tak ingat la sama meja ngan sape...Tapi paling seronok of course la Biologi(pada aku la). Dlu zaman hp blum ada camera, so takleh nak snap pics of tikus yang kitorg bedah. The whole class pn bau formalin. Form 5 bedah katak, matrik bedah tikus. Semua pn berebut nak bedah tikus. Ahahah...Kesian Cik Ti yang tidak berdosa dan comel itu...Aku rasa la, masa tu bedah tikus tu sbnrnya lebih kepada untuk keseronokan berbanding nak blaja..ahahahah...

Satu lagi eksperimen seronok, kira kepekatan darah(eh, yeke?). Tak ingat sangat la...Tapi yang pastinya hati ayam tu dihancurkan dengan menggunakan rod kaca di dalam tabung uji. Ade gak member yang cam nak muntah, tapi tak ingat sape.

Tapi satu experimen paling hampeh yang kitorg buat yang aku takkan lupa. Kira butir jagung, untuk experiment genetik, hybrid. Semua kitorg kira, tapi takde sorang pn dalam grup kitorg dapat jumlah butir yang betul, sbb calculation semua cam salah je..ahahahha...penat tul kira butir jagung mstu, itu ler yang aku minat pasal mendel nye genetic hybrid theory..ahahahah...Bosan de, klaka pn ade gak mstu...

Dalam kuliah, Mel duduk seblah aku memula. Then Awie lak...Bile boring dalam kuliah, ngantuk yang amat tapi takleh tdo, kitorg borak la...blaja bahasa Mandarin, cite pasal f4, david tao, Meteor Garden, Jay Chou, etc dari Awie. Awie yang ebrtanggungjawab buat aku gile artis2 taiwan nih,...hahahah... Awie ni kuat tdo. Kalo rehat 10 minit pn dia boleh tdo.haha.. Malam2 kalo aku bosan aku akan ke bilik Awie, lepak ngan dia n Al...Dorg slumber jek, tapi pandai..Skang ni rasanya dua2 tgh wat housemanship, kat ne aku tak tau. Al amik medic kat USM, Awie lak kat Uni Padjajaran, Bandung. Lama dah tak chat ngan Awie..Rindu kat dia..

Yi Miao De An Wei - Huang Yida

闭上眼就看见你的侧脸 这感觉像你还靠在我肩 沿着你眉间轻抚忧郁的眼 让失眠的我守在你的梦里面 想听见你的呼吸在耳边 这音乐能平静我的一切 明天再遥远不过是训练 训练多疼你一点 一秒的安慰 是我想你的滋味 微甜的滋味 让我能去面对 欠你的安慰 尽管你从不曾说累 你寂寞的眼我发现 对你总不够体贴 一秒的安慰 是那思念的滋味 微甜的滋味 给你力气面对 温柔的安慰 让它流入你的心扉 给我机会去体会 生命里有你多美 想听见你说的任何字眼 会温暖这颗心忘了疲倦 再多的考验不过是训练 训练更多的了解

Closing my eyes, I saw your side face The feeling is like you still leaning on my shoulder Following between your eye brow, lightly caresses the sad eyes Allow me (which can't sleep) stay in your dreams I want to hear your breathing beside my ear This sound is able calm all of me No matter how far tomorrow is, it's just a training Train to love you more a bit A moment of Consolation Is the taste of missing you The slightly sweet taste Allow me to face Consolation that I owed you Even if you never say tired I somehow discovered your lonely eyes There's always lack of care for you A moment of consolation Is the taste of missing Slightly sweet taste Provide you strength to face The gentle consolation Allow it to flow into your heart Giving the chance to feel How beautiful life is, by having you. I want to hear whatever you say As it will warm my heart and forget all the tiredness Even more test but it's just a training Train to know each other more and more

This is one of my favourite song. Listening to this song somehow made me a feel calm, relieved.
I don't read Chinese, neither do I speak Chinese..I only understand just a wee bit of Chinese, through friends, dramas and songs.

Typical me

The typical me...When I've reached my limits, I'll become somene who couldn't care less anymore..

I've reached my limits for so many things lately, and this adds up to another one.

I don't care of anything anymore. For whatever reason that matters. It's the typical you, doing the same thing over and over again. I know.

Typical me, typical you. Nuff said.

Tahu...

Aku mmg dah lama tau...tapi tak sangka sehebat ni...aku rasa kecewa...terpulanglah...apa yang dia buat pn takkan buat aku percaya lagi... :) aku yang dipersalahkan, and yet ade sebab lain...bagusla...

atas nama persahabatan, kita lalui bersama.terima kasih kerana tidak berterus terang. ia membuat aku rasa tertipu sahabat.... :)

Sibu trip

4 days in Sibu. Well, not exactly 4 days, considering we travel to Sibu on Friday morning at 8.30, reached Sibu at 3.pm, and travelled back to Kuching yesterday morning at 9am, reached Kuching at 5pm.

We went to Sibu for the '**** bersama Rakyat' program. and we're out promoting the organization and it's components. And also to help the election campaign.

Sibu trip was fun, although there's so many flaws in our program. But on the bright side, there's so many things that we could learn from our mistakes. Like Edison said when he was experimenting his invention on the light bulb, 77 failures mean 77 mistakes that we shouldn't be doing anymore. I hope everyone feels the same and not blaming each other. Just let the bygone be the bygone.

Unfortunately, I didn't have enough time to buy the NBC shirt. Cheap² NBC shirt. uhuhu...

Memories were also made, happy, sad, etc. Hope to meet friends in Sibu again. :)

Personally, I think this trip is a stress reliever for me. Which selfishly of me, I didn't think much of the problems in Kuching, until yesterday, when I was on my way back to Kuching. And then I know things has gotten worse at some point (well actually, it hasn't got worse, cos it's bad enough as it is(real bad)), when my family told me what happened during the weekend. I wish for them to leave all of us alone and just get on with their own lives.

4 tiring days. I couldn't really feel it until I reached Kuching and woke up this morning. I was feeling very tired this morning, had nasi kerabu+iced nescafe for breakfast, feeling extremely sleepy later on, slept while waiting for Ifa in the clinic for asthma treatment.And now it's lunch time, the time where sleeping is legal during office hours but I DON'T FEEL SLEEPY AT ALL anymore..Dear eyes, this is so unfair. It'll be fair if and only if u keep it up for the next 3.5 hours.