Tired

Rasanya ni la kali kedua posting bertajuk 'tired' menjelang hari raya. Arini baru buat 2 types of cookies. Itu pn yang satu tu tak siap lagi. Sok ingat nak sambung(bende tu dalam fridge).

Rasa cam ada jadual yang sgt bz.ehehe..Today cari brg n buat biskut.tomorrow ada buka puasa date ngan Jules. Weekend, wat kek kat umah usu. And yeah, kalo ikut plan, ada frens ajak buka puasa on saturday. 2 days b4 raya, wat biskut n kemas umah. On wed, RAYA. It's time to sleep..ehehehehe...

My parents will be working on the 5th day of Raya. 8th day of Raya work. N then break seminggu, pastu keje lagi, pastu jobless..Hehehe...

I have this mixed feeling inside. Not really in the mood to please anyone. And TIRED.

Tension

I feel tense. Why does she have to ruin other people's life?She was a rule breaker then, why does she hafta change now?Because her job is better than before, that she's in charge in almost everything?

And now, she feels like her life is ruined, so she tries to ruin the life of the others too? She's making things harder for me. She's so selfish..It's like she's trying to drag us too. I love her, but still mad at her.

Menonton TV

Smlm adalah hari menonton tv..tv itu saya yang conquer..hahahaha...tahpape je..

Lepas sahur smlm tak tdo, so lepas buat semua benda yang sepatutnye turun bawah konon2 nak tgk tv, so i watched Cinta Luar Biasa at Astro Kirana at 7am. Ada beberapa perkara yang aku dapat masa tgk cite tu, tapi highlight of the day was kata2 nasha aziz(i dun remember her name in that muvi tho)[her script],

Kita semua ada life masing2,
dah tak boleh nak macam dlu lagi dah,
tapi kita masih kawan kan?

True kan...Akan smpi satu stage where kita takkan hangout dengan closest frens as much as u did b4, sebab masing2 akan sibuk. C'est la vie~!

Hans Isaac punye script pn bagus, tapi tak ingat...

N syanie punye script lebih kurang camni,

Dalam sedar tak sedar,
hari ni dah jadi semalam,
esok akan jadi hari ni....(the rest saye tak ingat ye)

Itu adelah fact yang kita smua tau kan...tapi kadang2 kita cam tak sedar...Ada yang masih bury themselves in sadness, hatred, revenge...Padahal everything is in the past, banyak benda yang dah berubah..

Adakah aku seorang yang susah nak terima perubahan?Wake up!

Kepada Zatil, smlm aku g korea jumpe Yoon Eun Hye...Nnt aku balik jepun ehhh....eheheheh...

Smlm sempat gak g jumpe cinderella..Best la plak...Lepas tu balik Korea balik...

:)

To MyMrBaby,

Odaijini.... :) <3

Repekan Pertama

Hari ni rasanya akan merepek hiperbola compared to other entries that I've made.

Sebenarnya, these are what I wanna do, which I hope to achieve sempena Ramadhan ni.

• To be closer to God.
• To be quieter(less whining and stuffs).

Aritu cam byk je to do list ni. Huhu...takpe lah. I don't think I wanna elaborate more on those stuff.

And below, is what I tell my heart ever since last night.

Heart...
Bear with me...
You'll get what you want...

Maybe not today....

Someday...

God's will....

I was looking for my book which I kept since 1998. Found it in my box, where I keep most of my stuff from then. I read it, I smiled, I loathed it..hahahah...

Sometimes, I could sound bitter

That's why I wanna lessen what I said, be a quieter person. To have this mouth yang tidak berlapik, tanpa insuran nyawa serta berpuaka yang menyebabkan sesetengah org terasa, kecik ati. Being honest and outspoken is good, but I need to tone it down a little. I'm no angel, and just a human being yang selalu dikelilingi syaitan yang selalu menghasut saya menjadi jahat.

Kepada semua org yang pernah terasa ngn saye, saya dengan ikhlasnya meminta maaf. *humble bow*