November 17

Happy birthday to me...

I started off my birthday last night with the most memorable song in my life so far, karna ku sayang kamu by dygta. Terkejut gak sbb tak sangka lagu tu tetiba kuar kat tv3. Trus teringat dia..

My cousin wished me birthday n cakap this date was the date she and her husband met. Well, today is also a very meaningful date to me, since 4 years back, I met him after 9 yrs being apart.

Aku dapat ice-cream yang aku slalu bebel2 nak [dari first time aku nampak ice-cream, tak kira walaupun f(x) dia tak seberapa] tu from my mum n sis..tak sangka gak dapat sebenarnya, sbb aku tak penah mintak dorg belikan. I really appreciate it. My beloved bro gave me a cd case. This year, it's a cow. Last year i got bubub. Adik aku mmg suka bagi haiwan2 yang comel ni agaknya..hehehehe...

Kawan2 ofis lak bagi kasut sukan. Well, dorg tanya aku nak apa, sbb tak tau nak bagi aku ape. Sbb most benda yang boleh bagi kat aku, aku cam tak perlukan sgt.hehehe....

Tapi salah satu daripada wishlist aku, ialah happiness and tranquility. And the other one is a secret... ;p

And I would like to thank everyone who remembered my birthday for their thoughts and love. I love you all..

On the games

Mmm....lupa nak bagi update pasal that sports thingy. My office dapat 3rd place. The games I played, I lost. Well, most of it.

Boleh kira mostly sbb baru belajar nak main n awal2 game kurang chemistry. Nak kata totally puas ati takla sbb we know that we could do better. But then, it was worth it sbb boleh kira it was a good first try.

Semangat pn masih berkobar2 nak main. Tapi ada gak rasa nak balik, cos I wanna play the guitar. Dah lama aku mengabaikan gitar tu, sbb tak pandai main. Lately cam semangat sikit la, sbb cam dah reti sikit nak blaja camne..hahahaha...I am so silly, kan?

sad

Agak sedih arini.

Actually dah few weeks aku nampak benda yang kurang menyenangkan tu. Tapi suddenly my friend W smsed me tanya pasal benda tu. So aku check. Cam betul. Cuma I haven't got any details yet.

I do not know anything abt it, tapi it was pretty bad. It's the end of the year and things like that always happen at this time of the year..

Mari Bersukan

Everyone's busy these 2 weeks. Yes, with the inter****agency sport thingy. Well, not everyone. Everyone was suppose to participate, but some makcik2 prefered not to.Biasa la kan...

I'll be playing 3 sports. There are a few of us who'll be playing 2 or 3 kinds of sports due to the insufficient participation. The training wasn't so tough, but since we're not the kind who're used to one sport that's quite heavy for us it's tiring and all our muscles are aching. Lol. But I had fun.

We played with this one agency last week, we lost (sbb mostly kitorg tak tau the rules and not very familiar with it) tapi it was worth it. At least kitorg tau la what to do and what not to do.

Today, me and my friend one training in the morning, another sport during the evening and another one at night. Reminds me of yesterfay, when i reached home after the training, I washed the car (yang dah berminggu2 tak basuh) made some cake, slept for a while and finally went for bowling at night.

Tight schedule aku 2 minggu nih. Tapi it'll be boring again after the week ends. Because things'll go back to normal, plain day. I wish I could play even after the sports thingy.

The truth

I felt guilty for making him cry. To hell for those who says I don't love him. I do. I really do.

But I was.. i don't know. I just can't control my voice. Seeing him like that. I can't.

I know it was wrong. But he was wrong too. Now the damage is done, and everyone is too ego to admit anything. And we don't know when things'll go right.

Selepas kursus kawen

After attending the pre-marital course, most people started to ask me when am I gonna get married. After the course muka berseri la, tak lama lagi nak jadi pengantin la, ape la.

The truth is, I don't know when am I gonna get married. After the break up thingy, I haven't had anyone in mind that I wanna marry or even think of getting married with. Or perhaps the ugly, fat and fierce-looking me is unapproachable, or maybe they don't like me because I'm being me. Some even sounded a little silly, for me that is.

After everything that happened this year, now I don't know when's the best time to get married (+ now that I'm single, but I haven't think of finding someone to replace him). I have a new goal that I'd like to achieve within this 2 years. And I need blessings and support for that.

Sejarah mungkin berulang??

Oookay..so here's the story..

Pada zaman dulu, ada seorang puteri. Dia ada dayang yang selalu menemani dia ke mana je dia pegi. Pendek kata diorang ni mmg rapat la. Dalam sesetengah cerita, konon2 si dayang ni ada abang, n puteri n si abang ni jatuh cinta n ada jodoh. Sama ada itu yang terjadi ataupun, si putera (abang kepada puteri) yang jatuh cinta pada si dayang. Either way, in most stories pasangan tu in the end akan kawen.

So here's how sejarah mungkin berulang. Years and years from then on, mungkin 2 kawan baik ni nye anak cucu dah terpisah sbb pindah sana sini. So most probably dorg tak kenal antara satu sama lain. Tapi somehow, their descendant jumpa balik n ditakdirkan jadi bestfriends. Tapi takde orang pun sedar akan hakikat itu, sbb takde yang saling mengenali dalam masa depan cerita tu. And ade la sedara from salah sorang dari gadis2 tu tersuka kat bestfriend dia. And the story goes on and on and on...

Macam sangat penglipurlara kan??It is possible?Apa yang ditakdirkan Allah memang tak mustahil, tapi rasa macam sangat novel or telenovel or etc. Tapi seronok gak camtu kan?

Suda Lama Tidak Menjenguk Ke Sini

Hello World!

It's been almost a year since I last update my blog. Sejak keje, addict kat internet kurang, tapi skang rasa cam nak bertambah balik sbb seronok bercucuk tanam di facebook n ada sorority sister.lol~! Plus, I still haven't been able to face the fact, I mean I did, but it ain't as easy. Sebab 'dia' juga, saye suda sangat jarang2 bukak email n everything. Let go? Seinci pn tak dapat nak let go.

Anyway, skang dah agak lebih positif dari dlu. Mmg amik masa lama utk mend the broken pieces, walaupun still cam dlu, tapi dah leh pk lebih jelas compared to those times, cuma ade la perubahan pada diri aku yang aku tak berapa nak gemar sejak akhir² nih.

My family is still as mystical as they were. Lol~! Ade rasa nak update blog, cuma takde idea la most of the time. Time idea flow cam air terjun, time tu plak takde depan pc...kuciwa....bile dah depan pc, sama ada ilham jadi chipsmore atau pc tu takde internet. Bile ade ilham, dah depan pc plak, nak susun ayat yang payah.....

Skang ni Ramadhan, Syawal kurang dari 10 hari lagi. Rindu....Dalam 7 bulan ni, macam2 bende jadi kat aku. Biasala, kawan2 aku cakap idup aku cam novel, kali ni, lagi hebat..telenovela sepanyol pn kalah. hahaha....

Sebenarnya, skang ni mengantuk. Malam tadi balik agak lambat sbb kuar ngan my cousins yang dah bertahun tak jumpe n my lovely cousin. Sangat malas...Saya cuma mau menunggu tengahari untuk tdo...eheheheh...

Urgh!!

What are we? the It'll-be-better-if-I-die-now people??U were mad when I said those things, now u are the one saying that to my face..I must've inherited a lot of ur negativity. My emotions are hereditary. I inherited them from both of u, since we've been together almost forever. Note that.