Tuesday, October 27, 2009

The truth

I felt guilty for making him cry. To hell for those who says I don't love him. I do. I really do.

But I was.. i don't know. I just can't control my voice. Seeing him like that. I can't.

I know it was wrong. But he was wrong too. Now the damage is done, and everyone is too ego to admit anything. And we don't know when things'll go right.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Selepas kursus kawen

After attending the pre-marital course, most people started to ask me when am I gonna get married. After the course muka berseri la, tak lama lagi nak jadi pengantin la, ape la.

The truth is, I don't know when am I gonna get married. After the break up thingy, I haven't had anyone in mind that I wanna marry or even think of getting married with. Or perhaps the ugly, fat and fierce-looking me is unapproachable, or maybe they don't like me because I'm being me. Some even sounded a little silly, for me that is.

After everything that happened this year, now I don't know when's the best time to get married (+ now that I'm single, but I haven't think of finding someone to replace him). I have a new goal that I'd like to achieve within this 2 years. And I need blessings and support for that.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Sejarah mungkin berulang??

Oookay..so here's the story..

Pada zaman dulu, ada seorang puteri. Dia ada dayang yang selalu menemani dia ke mana je dia pegi. Pendek kata diorang ni mmg rapat la. Dalam sesetengah cerita, konon2 si dayang ni ada abang, n puteri n si abang ni jatuh cinta n ada jodoh. Sama ada itu yang terjadi ataupun, si putera (abang kepada puteri) yang jatuh cinta pada si dayang. Either way, in most stories pasangan tu in the end akan kawen.

So here's how sejarah mungkin berulang. Years and years from then on, mungkin 2 kawan baik ni nye anak cucu dah terpisah sbb pindah sana sini. So most probably dorg tak kenal antara satu sama lain. Tapi somehow, their descendant jumpa balik n ditakdirkan jadi bestfriends. Tapi takde orang pun sedar akan hakikat itu, sbb takde yang saling mengenali dalam masa depan cerita tu. And ade la sedara from salah sorang dari gadis2 tu tersuka kat bestfriend dia. And the story goes on and on and on...

Macam sangat penglipurlara kan??It is possible?Apa yang ditakdirkan Allah memang tak mustahil, tapi rasa macam sangat novel or telenovel or etc. Tapi seronok gak camtu kan?

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Suda Lama Tidak Menjenguk Ke Sini

Hello World!

It's been almost a year since I last update my blog. Sejak keje, addict kat internet kurang, tapi skang rasa cam nak bertambah balik sbb seronok bercucuk tanam di facebook n ada sorority sister.lol~! Plus, I still haven't been able to face the fact, I mean I did, but it ain't as easy. Sebab 'dia' juga, saye suda sangat jarang2 bukak email n everything. Let go? Seinci pn tak dapat nak let go.

Anyway, skang dah agak lebih positif dari dlu. Mmg amik masa lama utk mend the broken pieces, walaupun still cam dlu, tapi dah leh pk lebih jelas compared to those times, cuma ade la perubahan pada diri aku yang aku tak berapa nak gemar sejak akhir² nih.

My family is still as mystical as they were. Lol~! Ade rasa nak update blog, cuma takde idea la most of the time. Time idea flow cam air terjun, time tu plak takde depan pc...kuciwa....bile dah depan pc, sama ada ilham jadi chipsmore atau pc tu takde internet. Bile ade ilham, dah depan pc plak, nak susun ayat yang payah.....

Skang ni Ramadhan, Syawal kurang dari 10 hari lagi. Rindu....Dalam 7 bulan ni, macam2 bende jadi kat aku. Biasala, kawan2 aku cakap idup aku cam novel, kali ni, lagi hebat..telenovela sepanyol pn kalah. hahaha....

Sebenarnya, skang ni mengantuk. Malam tadi balik agak lambat sbb kuar ngan my cousins yang dah bertahun tak jumpe n my lovely cousin. Sangat malas...Saya cuma mau menunggu tengahari untuk tdo...eheheheh...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Urgh!!

What are we? the It'll-be-better-if-I-die-now people??U were mad when I said those things, now u are the one saying that to my face..I must've inherited a lot of ur negativity. My emotions are hereditary. I inherited them from both of u, since we've been together almost forever. Note that.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Ke'bz'an melangit

Last week adalah minggu yang bz ya amat....n amat memenatkan...

ulang alik kch-serian utk last session. N then bz ngan my cousin's wedding...Anyway..I made cupcake pops for her, utk barang hantaran..aku kecewa gila ngan hasilnye sbb agak kurang menjadi...
Di atas adalah cupcake tersebut..kecewa!kecewa!!!!

Btw, saya menghabiskan semalam dengan tido, smpi dimarahi ayahanda tersayang sbb gagal menyempurnakan tugas yang diberi..ehehehe...teramat penat...jiwa juga kacau...tetapi tidak apa2......

tiba2 otak menjadi kosong...

Akhir Cerita Cinta

sandiwarakah selama ini
setelah sekian lama kita telah bersama

inikah akhir cerita cinta
yang sekalu aku banggakan
didepan mereka

entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu

oh...

kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku
tanpa dirimu lagi

biarkan kini ku berdiri
melawan waktuku
untuk melupakanmu
walau sakit hatiku
namun aku bertahan

entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu..
kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku
tanpa dirimu lagi
biarkan kini kuberdiri
melawan waktu
kini harus aku lewati
tanpa dirimu....

biarkan kini ku berdiri
tanpamu
tanpa kehadiran dirimu
namun aku bertahan

Suda lama lagu ini berkulat di dalam hd tidak kudengari..gahahahahaha......Akak ske!!!