It is time to move on

I did update something for my previous entry, the AMT entry, but I didn't publish it. I dunno why, I just don't feel like updating the entry anymore.

Weird things happened to me. Internally, I mean. More like emotionally and mentally. Nahhhh..not physically, cos the scale is broken (yep, not losing any weight since I gain A LOT since the yesteryears..boohooo!)

I mean something that shouldn't be there anymore. These few weeks I keep on experiencing recurring dreams. It was like my feelings were drawn to that certain something. But in the end the only thing that's left to me was(and still does) is frustration.

So stupid of me to do that something. Yeah, I know! I know! I still do feel numb. But at least I'm better than this mornin' or yesterday's evening..

So thankful to Allah and all the people who showed the love and care for me during the sickly hours. Thank you for spending your time, your ears, your heart, your shoulder for me to cry on. I feel loved and blessed.

Get up!time to move on!fly higher!even higher that what you dream you could be, where it leads you to. It could be beyond your wildest imagination. Believe in yourself.

Verily, after each difficulty there is a relief (94:6). - the ultimate love letter, from Him. I believe in His word. My time will come. Soon. I will be happy too. I'll smile. There's always a BLESSING IN DISGUISE. Because He's the only one who knows what lies ahead, and what's best for us.

Which is why I love 94:6 and Blessings in Disguise.
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Journey's end

Yep, my course in Melaka and shopping in KL finally ended.

I've safely arrived at my home schweet home around 12.30 am. My flight was delayed for almost an hour. I believe and I know so that no matter where we are, no matter how nice other places are, no matter how small or untidy our home(yes, I'm talking about my room, and I hate cleaning my room although I actually prefer my room to be clean.lol.who doesn't?) is, yes, home is the most comfortable place to be, where you should feel safest, it's the place to be...

Sleep well, dear me. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day. Bon nuit! It feels goOd to be back. :)
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Achievement Motivation Training

I'm here, in Melaka..until Thursday. And the purpose of me being in Melaka would be to join the course mentioned above.

Twas fun, and all. I came here empty headed. Yes, I didn't expect anything. I thought that it was just a course, a normal course. But I guess this course kinda motivates me, make me wanna do better. It made me think of the purpose of me working with this organization, and what my aim is, especially work-related goal. What kind of leader I wish to be, I want to be. Where am I? Who am I?

I made mistakes tonight. Please Hotaru, don't make people misunderstand you. Your wandering makes people wonder, even when you have nothing in mind.
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Testing

Yeah, I'm trying... ;p
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updating

Yeah, i'm updating my blog...it's been almost a year since i last update my blog...congratulations, dear me!!! a new entry!!lol!

losing to yourself

the moment you try to wake up, being the new you, not because you like it, but because you know that it's the best for you, it's the moment that things will not go as you planned it to. blaming it on you-don't-know-what...trying hard to survive but in the end you failed.

but deep down you know why you failed. the hardness was an endurance test. whether you really deserve the change or not. agree?disagree?

they say it's okay to lose. but you know that you're a loser when you lose the most to yourself. Yeah, yeah! old habits die hard. but it's the YOU that made it hard..

Demotivated

Adalah merasa sangat2 demotivated sekarang. macam2 kawan2 aku cakap utk tlg aku, bg nasihat. time kasih kawan2...

tp, skang ni nak nangis pn takbleh dah...sangat2 sedih tapi sangat2 takleh nak nangis...ini suda gile demotivated. ujung tahun lepas, kne marah pn masih boleh nangis...but not this time...macam at wits end. sinah kata, kalo dah takleh nak nangis tu maknanya mmg takleh nak tanggung lagi, bende tu terlalu berat..

takdela berat sngat, cuma aku tak suke sgt2...gile2 tak ske. n gile2 demotivated. n is resulting to hatred...waaaa.....sangat rebel skang....