Wishes

Back here.

I wish I'm living and working in my hometown. Where i could be at the waterfalls, or at the beach on random weekends. Times where i dont have to plan, just go with what i wanna do.  Perhaps just stay at home,  doing nothing with my parents.

Where all my loved ones are near.

I miss my old life.

"Hold My Heart" by Sara Bareilles

I never meant to be the one to let you down

If anything, I thought I saw myself going first

I didn't know how to stick around

How to see anybody but me be getting hurt

I keep remembering the summer night

And the conversation breaking up the mood

I didn't want to tell you you were right

Like the season changing, oh, I felt it too

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

I'm not the kind to try to tell you lies

But the truth is you've been hiding from it too

I see the end sneaking in behind your eyes

Saying things no words could ever do

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

Is anybody listening?

'Cause I'm crying

Is anybody listening?

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go

I don't want let go, let go of you

I don't want to let go

Blog Abandoned For the Nth Time

I'm sorry dear blog, I was just so caught up in a world that I created in my head. Lol.

A lot of things happened. But one thing I know,

J said I push relationship away. which she sometimes is not sure why.

Well, sometimes I just had to do it. I can't imagine my life in a relationship with someone who claimed that he studied how to make a bomb (for example).

And i push it away not because I don't like that person. I had doubts. If that person will ever accept me for what I am. And what if the other person doesn't like me the way I like him.

Dear My Mr Darcy, I'm tired of waiting for you. Find yourself a Garmin and start looking for the right coordinate, please. Be fast. I'd like to slap you for being late.

Changing lanes, changing your life path

I guess i need a change.

A change that i hope will benefit me and people around me.

Sometimes doing what you do, trying, when some people take advantage, and take you for granted really is shortening your life span.

A friend said, staying in a toxic aura can make you negative too.

I guess i really need a change. But first i need to be brave.

I pray that god give me the strength. Im not running away. I just have to leave.

I hope life will get better for everyone.

Chicken bbq

Aside from lamb, i often marinade chicken. Now here's the recipe for today's chicken bbq.

Shallots
Garlic
Ginger
Gula apong
Granulated sugar
Corriander powder
Curry powder
Chilli powder
Turmeric powder
Salt

Yummmmssss....

More lamb marinade

I made another marinade today. The recipe as follow:-

Heinz original bbq sauce
Hunts honey hickory bbq sauce
Chilli powder
Gula apong
Granulated sugar

Yep, i think that is all. This is the nicest so far. Sbb ada sugar. The sugar caramelized and give this slightly burnt flavor and prevent the lamb from drying. Yummmmsssss

Mary had a little lamb

Arghhhhhh...shoot!

During our last bbq, i marinated the lamb. Ok, the recipe is different this time and to me it tastes better than the previous one. Hmmmmm.....i think there was only 3 ingredients needed....

Heinz bbq sauce
Chilli powder (babas pun boleyyyy

• Gula apong (a variant of the jaggery, which is made from the sap of the nipah palm or Nypa fruticans.) - thank you wikipedia. 

Mix everything together and marinate overnight.  Yummmmsssss~

Tired.

The meeting was okay. Bashed a little, but i survived. Hahahahha..

Was suppose to have fun  with everyone tonight but what the heck. Im just too tired anyway. Guess i'll sleep early tonight. 

Sweet dreams, dear me. 

What you should know

I wrote this last night. Just so u know..

Kambing BBQ

Last week, just before Ramadhan my family had this little gathering, tahlil and a little celebration on my parents' 34th wedding anniversary. So, ada BBQ la sikit...Sebenarnya, ayah request nak kambing bakar macam aku buat dulu. The problem is, i never remember my recipe. So today, aku nak abadikan ingredients aku kat sini. hmmm...

Kambing
Hunt's Honey Hickory Sauce
Gula apong
Madu
Cayenne pepper
Cajun spice

Setakat ni ramai kata sedap, termasuk abang sedara aku yang dari Makasar tu.. Dia punya BM memang lain sikit, dan makanan pun lain.. So, kalau dia kata 'nyamang' (nyaman/sedap) tu kira bole la kan...heheheheh...

But i don't have any photos of the lamb. Warui ne...sibuk sangat lupa nak ambik gamba...hmmm...