Wishes

Back here.

I wish I'm living and working in my hometown. Where i could be at the waterfalls, or at the beach on random weekends. Times where i dont have to plan, just go with what i wanna do.  Perhaps just stay at home,  doing nothing with my parents.

Where all my loved ones are near.

I miss my old life.

"Hold My Heart" by Sara Bareilles

I never meant to be the one to let you down

If anything, I thought I saw myself going first

I didn't know how to stick around

How to see anybody but me be getting hurt

I keep remembering the summer night

And the conversation breaking up the mood

I didn't want to tell you you were right

Like the season changing, oh, I felt it too

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

I'm not the kind to try to tell you lies

But the truth is you've been hiding from it too

I see the end sneaking in behind your eyes

Saying things no words could ever do

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

Is anybody listening?

'Cause I'm crying

Is anybody listening?

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go

I don't want let go, let go of you

I don't want to let go

Blog Abandoned For the Nth Time

I'm sorry dear blog, I was just so caught up in a world that I created in my head. Lol.

A lot of things happened. But one thing I know,

J said I push relationship away. which she sometimes is not sure why.

Well, sometimes I just had to do it. I can't imagine my life in a relationship with someone who claimed that he studied how to make a bomb (for example).

And i push it away not because I don't like that person. I had doubts. If that person will ever accept me for what I am. And what if the other person doesn't like me the way I like him.

Dear My Mr Darcy, I'm tired of waiting for you. Find yourself a Garmin and start looking for the right coordinate, please. Be fast. I'd like to slap you for being late.