The Iron

Life wasn't that fun last weekend. I was suppose to come back here last sunday and after my long lost friend's akad, but I had to go to Lawas on Saturday, so there goes my weekend. Well Lawas was suppose to be fun, but it ended up kinda shitty, due to some people's attitude, or it was me who's being too emotional. oh, there's a fly in my room. I wonder how it got up here. Dear Encik Lalat, go away before i kill you.

October was a month that i feel fun, but i don't think my birthday month gave me the same happiness. My birthday however was okay, i rarely had fun during my birthday, but this year turned out to be okay, just okay. Nothing bad, nothing too nice. I wasn't expecting anything, i only hope that no shit will happen. 

Lawas was a major disappointment, from the moment i reached there, i almost constantly chanting to myself that i shouldn't have been there. It got worse during the evening, and worse on Saturday evening. The Pesta Lawas was okay tho, i even bought Stevia which was sold cheaply there (well, they were promoting the stuff, so i was really really cheap), and the fella even gave me stevia leaves to try. Buying Stevia means I'll have to say no to Altel Simcard, My guess was Altel was cheap, but i think i've had enough shopping. hahaha. Its the middle of the month and as I said, October and November wasn't been nice enough to my pocket. haha!

I just hope tomorrow life will give me happiness.

Blog, blogger, blogging

I used tp blog everyday. yes, everyday. But now, i've lost my touch. ahahaha..touch la sangat...dulu blog panjang berjela, sekarang 3 4 lines dah siap...haish...i am such a boring person. i've a lot to tell but i only have it in my mind. Not so much of a verbal person anymore?? Maybe, sbb sekarang aku akan penat bila berbual terlalu lama....oh dear me, please get a life~~

Pergi tak kembali

Pernah tak tersangka orang yang kita cinta dan sayang akan tinggalkan kita? Hidup ataupun mati, kita ditinggalkan. Sakitnya bila yang pergi meninggalkan kita dengan sejuta memori.

Aku rasa tak sanggup nak baca cerita pasal ahmad hakimi, dan isterinya, asma'a, kerana pasti kisah yang pergi tak kembali meruntun jiwa. Ramai yang membaca, menangis dan merasakan indahnya kisah cinta itu, dan tragiknya bila segalanya berakhir sekelip mata. Mereka di dalam MH17 kembali satu persatu ke Malaysia dan negara2 asal, meninggal rasa duka yang tidak terungkap oleh kata-kata. Hanya yang merasa memahami. Sedih yang diungkap, pilu yang dirasa.

Aku harap semua hanya mimpi. Satu omongan, fitnah dari dunia siber yang sentiasa memuntahkan pelbagai kebenaran dan kepalsuan. begitu juga MH370, andai mati mana kuburnya?andai hidup mana orangnya? 2 peristiwa yang benar-benar menyentuh hati.

Tuhan Maha Mendengar. Mungkin dulu kita kata ketika MH370 tidak dapat dikesan, lebih baik kalau tahu MH370 terhempas, sekurang-kurangnya kita tahu semua dah kembali kepada Sang Pencipta.

Kita duji sekali lagi dengan kembalinya mereka di dalam perut MH17 kepada Sang Pencipta. Benar, kita temui di mana mayatnya, kita tahu di mana kuburnya, tapi ia tidak mengurangkan walau sedikitpun rasa kehilangan, sebal, sedih, nyilu dan pilu di dalam hati.

Tiba masanya kita belajar. Untuk bersatu, menjadi dewasa, matang, menjadi lebih baik. dan paling penting menyebut yang baik-baik sahaja, kerana kata-kata itu adalah doa.

Bagi pengkritik dan haters, Kau boleh kritik, kata semua tak bagus, sebab di hati kau hanya kau dan sahabat kau sahaja yang sempurna. Ya benar, kita perlu belajar, sentiasa ada ruang untuk penambahbaikan, kerana yang sempurna hanyalah Dia, pemilik sekalian alam, tapi bukan mereka sahaja, kau juga. Sudahlah, hentikan menghukum tanpa empati, tilik dulu dalam diri. Omongan itu cerminan diri. 

#mh17 #mh370

Fallin

I think i like you
Maybe even love you
Because
I miss you everyday
Every second
Every hour

But i hate
The me who fell for you
Selfishly in need
Of your constant attention
Clingy as i could ever be

Embarrassing myself
I know
All good things must end
You're just too good to be true
Perhaps...
I should stop
I must stop

I must
Stop myself
Before i
Fall deeper in devastation and agony

Dear heart
Please be smart
Falling is not a thing
For you~